(I had worked on a copy of this for an hour, when the entire draft disappeared into an oblivion. So here is my second slightly shorter version, in which I tried to reproduce the meaning of the first and not necessarily the flowing language. It's late.)***************
I can't say Mimi didn't warn me of how fast the time would go by after having children. But it's starting to get kind of scary. I watched my sweet-as-can be first born sleeping tonight, and I feel like I must have blinked. Like I must have missed something. Because here we are, celebrating your FOURTH year.

After you were born, I remember that feeling of bliss. And exhaustion. There was no way I was going to allow anyone take you to the nursery so I could get some "quality sleep." No sir. You slept right by my side, tightly swaddled. I liked to unwrap you and just admire your miniature tapered fingers and your wrinkled and not-yet-filled-out feet.

When it was time to bring you home, I couldn't believe that this perfectly tiny boy was all ours to keep. I sat for hours, studying your perfectly formed features and mimicking your quickly-changing expressions. Fortunately, the week after we brought you home was unseasonably warm because I wanted to walk you around and show you to the world. I was a proud Momma. You had granted me my wish of being a stay-at-home mom.

A sweet little personality emerged. Playful and bubbly yet sensitive, you filled our days with a joy that we could never have imagined.

And taught us how to be parents.

You were just the right beginning to our growing family.

Though you were only 14 1/2 months when Abigail was born, you doted on your baby sister and tried to be helpful and anyway you could.

It has been heartbreaking to see you experience fears and disappointments along the road, but we know those things will help form you to the person God wants you to be.

And we've marveled and rejoiced with you when you overcome those fears, when you hit new milestones.

When your second sister arrived, you proved what a gentle, loving and considerate boy you are- to both of your sisters.

Homeschooling you has been a delight thus far. I love witnessing your zeal for dinosaurs, building, books, music, and especially learning about God and your desire to do your best.

You are the most imaginative, inquisitive, attentive, self-entertaining, radiant, lively, compassionate, considerate, fun and sweet little boy I know, and I'm so blessed to call you my son. Of course, there's a sadness in seeing how fleeting these wonderful years are. You've reminded us lately that you
have to grow up because that's what little boys
do. But thank you for trying to make us feel better by your assurances that you'll at least live close by and come home for dinner every day. You'll always be welcome.
Dad and I are so proud of you, Peanut Butter! We love you so very much!

HAPPY 4th BIRTHDAY!