I'm not staying up too late for fear that something else bad would happen. But can I just document today? As something I
don't want to repeat?
The kids (and I) were in rare form today- Jack had to be taken out of church (which is infrequent anymore). I awoke in foul mood. Abigail spent a good bit of the morning in her room, screaming or being blatantly disobedient. Jack told her after she was pestering him about something, "Abigail, you're going to hell." Mike's resulting talk reduced him to sobs. Fortunately, he learns from these incidents. In general, the time leading up to naps was wrought with discord and strife and yelling and consequences. During nap time, I had to force my unwilling and exhausted self to go to the store to pick up a few things we needed for salad for our Teams meeting this evening.
At least the kids had a better evening than Mike and I, as the Ward girls ("Word Worlds") and Jonathan came to play with them while Mike and I were at our meeting. That's not saying our meeting was unenjoyable-- it was, for the one hour out of three we got to be there. On our way to the meeting, I got off one exit too early, so we pulled over to get new directions off of Mike's phone. The car stalled and wouldn't restart, so we had to call AAA. We ended up getting a new battery and were almost an hour and a half better late than never to the meeting with our bread and wilting salad. We had to leave a half-hour early to be home to put Iris to bed.
Back home, on the way up our walk to see the kids and collapse on the couch, the bag I was carrying gave way from under the bowls (paper bag... heavy bowls... very dumb)
:'( I keep telling myself, they're just bowls. At least this didn't happen when they were still full of salad, eh?)
There are plenty of the good days that I like to remember these, which seem to bring us to our knees- half in laughter. In all seriousness, I'm happy to be experiencing difficult days of this nature, as I know these don't come close with REAL trials. I'm working on being more at peace with day to day struggles and failures, knowing that to pick up my cross daily and walk with Jesus in his suffering is a blessing.